tickets

i have time out tickets for anyone.

no shit...

sorry for the profanity... so went to the dr today. they plan on doing the c-section in the next 6 weeks. found it funny and dumb that i pay them how much for 15 min for them to tell me this.

shunt was recalibrated on Friday, had my 6 xray to date in the pregnancy. still can't see that well, not going to look for it too come back. hahaha (get it)! probibly c-section will be when it goes completely or i can't stand the pain anymore. and by pain i mean my head going to split bc the fluid in my brain is pushing my brain against my skull bc the shunt isn't draining bc my belly is too big. IT is like sinus pressure that shifts except when it does i spin, fall down (not so good right now), slur like i am drunk, can't complete a sentence kind a fun.


Four months from now... iam looking forward to sleep. really !

week at grams

so sunday we packed ty up and he went to grams for a week. I remember the week or months that I would spend at my grandmas. I loved them and now we have a great relationship. I hope that ty and my mom will too. but this is how halloween was spent. stuart took ty around and i sat and passed out candy untill they got back. Halloweeen in uma is sooo different we have like 1000 trick or treaters and here we have like 60. granted it is all the kids from Mexico but still it lasts forever and you run out of candy. Here i have candy for the next year.

25

quarter of a century! Did not expect life to be like this and that is just fine with me! I am excited for the next 25 years and in hopes that i will have learned somethings from my past. At least I don't have to be at highschool or deal with dating. hahahaa

Five to Six

Five to Six weeks and Anika will be here! Time is flying and i am starting to have to be in bed more and more. I went to church on Sunday and I fear it was the last. 3 hours was hard! and the contractions never end. well, ok they do. So taste is gone, but i still have my sight in one eye. I have so much that I need to get done. I finally created a list and have stared to knock stuff off of it. My mom might be back for a weekend visit on the 25th of Oct. and then back on the 10th of Nov. Ty just got out of the bath and had a awesome mohawk. He is such a good boy. We have so much fun during the day and I am so glad that it is cool for him to go outside! I love fall. IT is my favorite season by far. I love the smell of pumkin and spice and the colors. There are so many decoration that I want to get but funny how something gets in the way each season. You know how things happen in threes... well, our oven/microwave burnt up, and water heater is out. and then our bathroom is full of mold bc who puts carpet in a bathroom. Not big fixes but expensive ones Stuart is soo handy when he wants to be. Growen up he had to fix everything and he just has a nack(sp) for it. Speaking of who brought me Dunkin Doughnuts, I love the chocholate cake ones. He is kind. I think i want the taverntine tile for in the bathroom and we are thinking of making our shower a walk in. Just have to wait till i find that cheap. In the mean time we need the waterheater first and then oven before thanksgiving cus everyone is coming here for it. Ohh thats another thing that i am getting ready for and then there is the question of christmas and what to do. We got at Christmas tree tag so that will be fun to go chop another one. Mabe get a pretty one last years looked like Charlie Browns. anyway just alot on my head and it hurts and is big and well that is an understatment but you get it. thanks for the rant. Still stuck with nothing completed! Weird.

Seems

Wow, it seems all that all i do is complain. Great realization! ya that sucked. My mom came this weekend and my grandma is coming on Wednesday. I am sure that we are going to get fined for the freakin huge RV that will be parked in our from yard or the cops will come but what will they say, "move the RV." ya for some reason authority just doesn't bug me or I have no real care for them. mabe it is because i got in some much trouble as a youth. whatever. so i am in mad dash mode to clean my home and get it ready for them so that my 80 year old gram isn't cleaning. Why or When does the busy bee end? My mom is exactly the same. Put them together and wow you have a show, but i need the help. so anyways there i go again complaining. So that is this week and Anika is 3.4 lbs! ya, and the doctors are still in arguing phase. ANy1 no House?

Last Thanksgiving was my bestest friends wedding in Florida. As Thanksgiving quickly approaches I am in awe at the mysteries life presents. To think that a year ago we thought that we had beaten all the odds, how naive we are. This Thanksgivng we will have a new addition, Anika Noel. And another life changing event soon after. In just a short year everything for us has changed and change is hard. For those of you in transitition we understand the pain and confusion that life brings, but we know that if we can beat these odds, anything and everything is possible!

To those that follow this and our lives know that I am out of sorts, not myself, weird and it is going to get worse. Please do not let me offend. I wish that I was in control but am not.

Support is needed right now so this is an open invitation to come and hang out. Whenever!