today

today was hard. I had an appointment for our first ultrasound. everything is fine with the baby. don't get nervous. however, the bills are just sermounting. Mayo is getting denied, from all the expermental tests on my tumor and we are just surrounded by bills. I have been able to negotiate through and advoid collections thus far but the end is near. But finally, stuart felt happy when he saw the baby on the ultrasound. so as i manage finances and not tell him a thing, he is coming around. there are risks and soon i will be back at the high risk doctor and they will mandate bed rest. With a 2 year old i doubt i'll follow orders. i am happy and calm this time and it is the best feeling! so the due date is December 15 but we probibly will be delievering in Oct just as Ty came at 32 weeks because i start to have brain damage. it sounds worse than it is. we are so excited for the new arrival!!!

defying

yes yes, i started showing way earily this time and while we were going to keep it secret for a little while to adjust to it. i am preggers. just barely 9 weeks. not excited just more nervous and stressed grateful and blessed.